Minister Sophia James' Story
As I think about my life there is so much to cover. I feel like I have become a different person with a new life since God delivered me. I had a child at the age of sixteen, went through a stage of being in love, rejected, and found out that my child was sick with sickle cell disease. These issues caused me to turn to drugs to cover up my pain on the inside. I was addicted to cocaine and all kinds of sex. Then I had a second child with sickle cell disease.
Satan really set me up with this man who was about 17 or 18 years older than me. At first he was supplying me with all the cocaine that I needed until he got hooked on shooting up drugs. He became very abusive and I would get beat up for something as simple as not being home when he called. But, because of the drugs, I put up with the threats along with the physical and mental abuse.
I would tell myself that he really loved me. When you are twisted on the inside, you don’t know what love really is. My eyes were open the night he tried to kill me in front of my two children. He had beat me down to the floor and, with his big steel toe boots, he began to stomp his foot into my neck. My children were crying for me, and my daughter ran to get help while my four year old son tried to stop him. As I recall, this man pushed my son out of the way and began to curse at him. While I was on the floor in a hopeless place, all bloody from being beaten, I snapped. I promised God that if this man ever put his hands on me, I would kill him.
So many times he threatened to kill my children with a knife to my neck. One time he tried to hold me down and shoot cocaine into my veins. Since I would not do this, he beat me until my face was bloody. But, I was so high, all I wanted was more cocaine.
As I write this testimony, I remember this man knocked me out cold one night. He picked me up. It was raining as I stumbled out my mother’s house, and I could tell by the look on his face that I was going to get another beating. As soon as I made it out the door, he punched me in the face and blood was everywhere. I was so afraid, but I remembered the promise that he made about killing my children. So I decided that it would be better for him to kill me than my two children.
He got a room at a hotel and he said to me, “This is the night that you are going to die.” He drove me down this dark road, and made me get out the car in the rain. He went in the trunk and got the tire jack, and pushed me beside the car. I began to pray and these were my words, “God if you are real please help me!” This man stood in front of me high off drugs looking like the face of evil. He began to swing that jack trying to hit me, but I felt an unseen force (my Angel) stand in front of me. He swung and swung causing dents in his car all around me. The jack could not make contact with my body, because God heard my prayer and sent my Angel to protect me. I know it was an angel because years after I received Christ, the Spirit of God, showed me in a vision of every time God sent an angel to save my life. After that I began to think about salvation often.
I got to a point in my life where everything I did was centered around getting high with cocaine and pills. The Holy Spirit began to place people in my life that always talked about being saved. Jesus would remind me of my grandmother’s prayers to save me. I got to a point where I hated myself. One night I was standing in the mirror getting ready to do some cocaine. I stood there and looked at myself, and for the first time I could see my life going downward. At that point with the cocaine in my hand I asked God to set me free. Instantly, God set me free and I put the cocaine down. And from that day to now, 25 years, I never snorted cocaine or did any kind of drugs again. But, I still was not saved.
The Holy Spirit allowed me for the first time to hear and pay attention when people began to talk about Jesus. One morning I told God that either God would save me that day or I would commit suicide, because I refused to live another day on earth in darkness and sin. I went to the Christian Book store and bought the tape called “God is Still in Charge of My Life.” I went back home and put on the tape and these were my words to God. “God at this point my life is useless, but if you would forgive me of my sins and take my life I will give it to you. Jesus come into my heart and I promise that I will live for you the rest of my life.” When I said Jesus come into my heart, immediately I felt like 3,000 pounds of darkness and sin lifted off me. For the first time, love came into me. I heard Jesus say to the Father, “Father this is your daughter.” And He said to me,” This is your Father.” I came downstairs and I knew without a doubt that I was a new person. I was saved!
A couple of months later while praying, God showed me Mrs. Catherine’s face in a vision. He told me to go and find her. I began searching for Mrs. Catherine. One day I was going to the gas station and I saw her and Pastor James. I told her that I was saved, and I was married and needed a church. She told me that they had just started Word of Life Fellowship Church. This is how I got connected and became a part of this church. This happened 25 years ago. God has and still is miraculously changing my life through the Word of God!
Minister Sophia James